Dissatisfied, especially with people in authority or a system of control:
Each of us is so weak that we revel in the notion of belonging to a group. A family, a gang, a charity, a nation, a religion, a consumer, a talker . . . the list is endless and greater than the number of participants; for each combination of participants is it's own group.
Each instance of belonging is a sliver of self denied. It may support the short term desires of the mind and body but it empties my soul.
So I am a disaffected animal, a disaffected vegan. What good does it do my soul to agree with other vegan consumers on how to sustain myself by consuming alternatives; Seeking support from other weak and disaffected creatures will at best insulate me from the spirit of life and eternal joy.
Swapping my bloody apron for a mantle of flowers and sunshine does not free me from my corporeal chain of destruction, yet this was and still is the purpose of my venture to undertake a vegan direction, to try and build a soul in the garden of the eternal spirit, not some ecologically sustainable lifestyle using the pretence that if I abstain from killing animals I have somehow reached a better position. A different position no doubt, that suits my cowardly heart but it does not change what I am.
I mean, self sacrifice not where someone or something is destroyed to satisfy the human taste, nor do I don't mean inflicting self harm.
The sacrifice I am refering to is where someone abstains or forgoes a regular habit of consumption as a part of a redirtection of lifestyle, so I am not reffering to a tempory abstinance.
Thoughts have arisen after my former partner mentioned how she regrets giving up her leather shoes to be with me, as I was and still am vegan. She said she was pressured into giving away some treasured footwear. I pointed out that she had a choice not to be with me, so the pressure was of her own making. She doen't accept it was freedom of choice, a pressure she created out of her desire to be with me, a decision she clearly regrets for 31 years.
Ok the reason we had this discusion is because she infers by my reluctance to accept animal products on the land that I am intollerant and I need to be more understnding. My argument is that I do not want anyone to bring animal products on to the land, and that is my freedom of choice.
I accept that there are occasions where I will overlook instances when someone who is not intending to stay visits. And I can understand that there is no further harm done or intended by using an animal product once it has been acquired. It is the acquistion and not the function it is put too. I have for instance eaten a piece of cheese, more notable as at the time I eat only a raw vegan diet of fruit. I more recently found myself with company having bought two Clive's pies, only to discover one contained cheese. My friend, also vegan, was bit put out. I explianed the act had been done and it would be an insult to throw away the cows good karma, due our bad. I consequently took a piece to eat to show that is wasn't the material consumption but the thought that was the problem.
I hear that people want, or say they need, to continue to use animals and consume animal products but it is not something I want.
So a issues arises when dealing with a, vegetarian who wants or, vegan who still has leather; as for example, in a pair of shoes.
In some situations it may seem innocuous, or maybe an lack of consideration or even a lack of commitment to not using animals and their by products.
Innoccuous: Someone may visit wearing leather shoes or wearing a woollen jumper; I may not notice or tolerate it for some personal reason of wanting the persons company.
Lacking consideration: Some may visit wearing a leather or fur coat or they may bring out some leather to 'work on' in my presence. They may bring some animal foods to eat. All of these I would take issue with as they are an obvious use of an animal product and I am being made clearly aware of the person choice not to just continue their exploitation of animals. If I say or do nothing I am clearly being complicit and supporting such use. I have to have a very exceptional reason to say nothing or just make a passing comment.
Commitment: This only applies to people who declare an interest not to use animal products for spiritual or ethical reasons. I will draw a similarity to meditation. The intent is stop the use of those that are physically or intellectually to weak to challenge fair trade. This includes, young, old and infirm people by virtue of their diminished strength and their lack of intellectual prowess to avoid being used. Clearly this applies to aliens, foreigners and all non human animals.
The avoidance of using such people is clear. There is no skill learnt if all one has to do is to exploit the weak. It just bullying and shows an inherent weakness in me that I do exploit such people, so being vegan is a backup technique to keep me thinking about my strength of will. It is surely tested all day and every day.
Still what of those that are not so committed what arguments do they use to hide their lack of strength, what excuses do they find to use or be complicit in the use of animals. Often they will argue that people are more important, but that is a failing logic as people are far better placed to look after themselves than other animals.
The final thoughts, which prompted this writing, which I write with some nervousness, is how the arguments that keeping a pair of leather shoes is acceptable, for a committed vegan.
As I said it is not the wearing of the leather but the action of putting it on that requires the break in the meditation. That the shoes are comfortable or that the animal is already dead may be facts to the wearer but are not part of the vegan meditation. So I will highlight the lack of logic, for if there was any in such arguments then the following would also be true. Yet I doubt may people would would do this and certainly not vegans, and yet given that this entails the use of human body parts, it could arguably be more acceptable than using that of a weak animal, if of course the human was fit and well, able and willing to be complicit. However in this pointed example the human was not consenting, just like the cow that was skinned to make shoes.
The case here is one that may well have happened and I'm sure I have read reports of similar uses of human body parts. First I would like to say that a tribal warrior may well eat the heart of it's enemy with the understanding that it evokes a strengthening of will, but the warrior would not eat the heart of a weak enemy and invoke the thought of weakness.
In desperate situations people have resorted to cannibalism as a final means of survival, but I doubt that they with take home any leftovers and store them for the future.
The gritty titty
There are stories of breasts being made into pouches, no doubt dicks made into some cigar holders or maybe even a pair of gloves. So what reason does a vegan have to keep animal products? Is it any different from buying a hand bag made by nazi's from romany or jewish hide. After all the torture was done a while ago, all I did was to buy the product and it's very comfortable and look's good: ?? Look's good and comfortable %*!? Don't even mention vegetarians, they're below reasonable exploitation. Still I have to eat something; or do I?