This is largely something I wrote when you mentioned you were coming to Saltash to look at a caravan, and edited it just after you brought it.
I thought it was quite irrelevant once you had been here and set the caravan in the field, but I have had a lot of thinking and so I am using the old text as a backing for a major concern. Glad you're happy with the caravan, and I have no problem with you bringing it here, but I have lots of concerns about what you want to do so it will be good to see what you put in writing.
I know you want to 'get going' so to speak but that has an enormous impact upon me, which I have indicated. One example was talking about the fields. Although anything is possible and some things very probable in some time scale, I thought I'd made it clear that any work in the field we have the kitchen in; i.e. around the apple trees and the circle have two drawbacks in the short term. a) they impact close to Vera and me and b) the triangle field, being neglected, is easier to recover. Wherever you clear you will make it more enticing for the deer, and given the location of the circle that won't be appreciated at this time by Vera nor is it by me.
So the real problem is maybe you didn't understand me and that implies you are too busy to consider the smaller issues given the larger view you have of what you can and want to do.
As a trustee I am looking after the interests of not just myself as a beneficiary but the potential of there being other beneficiaries. The trust can provide you with an acre of land to exploit, subject to your agreement. Please do not cherish the idea that you are going to benefit anyone other that yourself. That others may take benefit from you shows it is not necessary nor a reasonable argument to actively work for others benefit. Working for others benefits in the material world only serves to develop more intensive exploitation of resources. Those who co-operate do so at the expense of those not part of the intentional mutual.
Relax, do nothing if you can. Do something if you have to but do it slowly, alone. If you cannot be alone, talk with your company about how you may avoid doing what you think is so necessary.
The more you do the more resources you will have to exploit. The trust is a place to experiment on doing as little exploitation as possible.
You are more than welcome to exploit the trust to do exactly that. As little as possible, with as much endeavour as you can stomach.
Although the trust enshrines the idea of benefits, it is not that you will benefit emotionally or spiritually from the trust, rather that you are being offered a place where you will confront your indulgences, frailty and the difficulties in breaking free from the addiction of mutual exploitation. If you can enjoy such a space, you have a place to be.
Although a journey begins with a step, without a clear awareness of the impact of the first footfall then then journey has yet to begin. A smaller step will create less impact; with less impact, the greater the chance of full awareness.
I notice that I often fall into the trap of using the third person pronoun 'you' or at least imply it especially as it's all to easy to use it as the third person plural when referring to a group of individuals who co-operate to use resources.
This is slack of me and only encourages a lack of personal responsibility. In my day to day routines it is easy for me to dismiss individuality, but the trust only deals with individuals on the basis that it is the individual that consumes and there is only one acre of land per individual to exploit.
In terms of bring things onto the land a single person must be completely responsible for their personal assets in relationship to the trust, which is the basis of a contract.
In relationship to bringing the caravan on to the land there is no clear idea of whom it belongs to and no contract.
The idea of brining a caravan on to the land for a short time is to provide temporary shelter for equipment and self whilst experimenting with using the land to grow crops. The success of this being a prerequisite to preparing a year+ contract and to understand the responsibilities of becoming a trustee of the land.
The caravan has been here for a month and of no use to man or beast so the question of responsibility is stretched and the idea of contract blurred.
None of this is a good or bad thing and small steps are encouraging. Still I would have preferred there not to be a caravan in the field without a clear contract with an individual as to it's reason to be there.
I don't know who I'm talking to J or J
Clearly I need to be more careful and not be dragged into a third person dialogue, as once action has been taken either I have to do something about it or regress to thinking someone else is responsible.