Dissatisfied, especially with people in authority or a system of control:
Each of us is so weak that we revel in the notion of belonging to a group. A family, a gang, a charity, a nation, a religion, a consumer, a talker . . . the list is endless and greater than the number of participants; for each combination of participants is it's own group.
Each instance of belonging is a sliver of self denied. It may support the short term desires of the mind and body but it empties my soul.
So I am a disaffected animal, a disaffected vegan. What good does it do my soul to agree with other vegan consumers on how to sustain myself by consuming alternatives; Seeking support from other weak and disaffected creatures will at best insulate me from the spirit of life and eternal joy.
Swapping my bloody apron for a mantle of flowers and sunshine does not free me from my corporeal chain of destruction, yet this was and still is the purpose of my venture to undertake a vegan direction, to try and build a soul in the garden of the eternal spirit, not some ecologically sustainable lifestyle using the pretence that if I abstain from killing animals I have somehow reached a better position. A different position no doubt, that suits my cowardly heart but it does not change what I am.
Some notable events:
April 2015 There has been very little rain this month and not that much this year.
April 15th: Hottest day, 26°C, since last summer.
April 16th: For the first time the ash are leafing at the same time as the sycamore. Ash is usually a few weeks later at least (last to leaf, first to shed). It seems all the trees are leafing at the same time, which is extremely odd (ash, oak, hawthorn, sycamore). So it seems they are primarily sensitive to temperature not day length.
The ELF trust Admin seems pretty sketchy at times, not surprisingly as most of the work is landscaping and organic food plots.
The most frequent issue is neighbour problems.
Currently they are
- Issues over abuse of water contract with Townsend's
Link to letters ('The Townsend Tango' requires authorisation to view)
Update on small claim
- Rubbish being dumped on the land by neighbours at Harewood Gardens
- Use of land by Okel Tor as part of the footpath they have provided to the public
- Unauthorised cutting of trees by the Kings at Trekensa Gardens
- Still have to establish proper understanding of boundary fence with owners of part Harewood House
And of course there is the planning issue.