Definition of disaffected in English:adjective

Dissatisfied, especially with people in authority or a system of control:

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'Super anxious'

The National Autistic Society describes autism as a condition which influences how people experience and interact with the world and says
more than one in 100 people in the UK are autistic.

Sgt Linscott said he was not surprised when he was diagnosed.

"Autistic people will recognise that there are elements where you will mask or you will present yourself in a certain way to perhaps hide some of the inner things that you're going through yourself," he said.

"So you could be super anxious about a certain thing that's about to happen, albeit once I've rehearsed how I'm going to conduct myself, it then becomes a bit more predictable.

"Then it becomes safe and then you can relax completely.

"But it doesn't always work out that way, which is why I then rely on my colleagues in the same network."

bbc.co.uk: 13th July 2025

Which explains:

• I am very mathematical and see patterns
• Why I joined the navy when my girlfriend had another boyfriend
• Why the structure of the navy was brilliant. I knew exactly what I was doing
• After leaving the navy my friends were alternative music lovers smoking and taking LSD they could easily accept me they were freaks too.
• Why I never cut my hair once a decision was made in 1969
• Why an extreme tie to use vegan issues to focus me hate of consumerism and power via money
• Why having land to look after and cultivating crops, chopping wood, collecting rain, doing lots of computing work including having my own server gives me a sense of stability
• Philosophy and The Art of dying is now a simple focus as all an animal does is destroy to feed itself being afraid of death. This is not life but a horrible game to play with death. I'm better off playing alone now I am alone.
• Turn on, Tune in and Drop out. So simple in words but real hard manual labour is the way to go. It teaches responsibility.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oxalis_acetosella

There's a type with has pale mauve/pink with dark lines that has bulbs, from which small clove like bits break of in the soil and reproduce invasively, maybe the seeds are also a viable source. They tend to have a single or a few stems. Another type has a yellow flowers a string like root with multiple stems and is half the size.

In two to three square metres I have dug up maybe four or five kilos.